One thing leads to another, doesn't it?

Mood: Worried


Song: White Destiny - Unknown (As in I don't know. It's a Pretear song though.)


Obsession: "from e to you" - Chris d'Lacey & Linda Newbery (No, it's not a spelling mistake, it is "e." This is a really good book. Go read it.


Quote: "If your life isn't going for you, get a new one." - Anonymous (As if it's that easy)

I'm worried...Matt hasn't replied to my e-mail or blogged. OK, so he's not a daily blogger, but he usually answers my e-mail by the very next day. And now he hasn't. I normally wouldn't be worried, but he was upset last day... I hope he's just sulking. Though I'd probably want to clobber him on the head if that was all.

I've really gotten addicted to the book mentioned above. I'm going to have to finish it tonight. But I kind of don't want to finish it yet, because I'll need something to do during my car ride tomorrow.

Speaking of which, I'm not going to have my precious, wonderful internet for more than 24 hours! >.< *sigh* Ah well, fresh air should be good for me, right? Tomorrow morning, I'll be leaving to go back to that cottage. (Perfect timing too since I was thinking I needed plans) (Ahhh....still need to pack!) I'm gonna be staying overnight and be back on Sunday. Will you miss me? lol

Well, today was the picnic thing. It was ok... (more later...I need to go sleep soon) And then I went downtown for Anime club. While watching Slayers TRY, I had the most marvelous idea! (But more about that later too). And remember how I mentioned Princess NINE? I still love it. Still, it has partly to do with me falling for almost every anime guy to cross my path. *shakes head* My obsessions are fleeting.

Well, gotta sleep! Or I'll never wake up...

P.S. Matt, you bloody prat, you better have replied or show some indication of life by the time I come back. =P

What A Day...

Mood: Uncertain


Song:You'll Be In My Heart - Phil Collins (Tarzan Soundtrack)


Obsession: Mrs. Fields cookies. Pure Heaven *sigh*


Quote: "You have not lived life until you've loved. You can not experience the joy of happiness if you've never felt sadness and depression. Life is a journey of experiences, whether joyful or not, they help make you who you are." - Anonymous (I know, I like Anonymous quotes, it gives it more mystery)

What? Is bad days contagious now? And I thought I was having a bad day. It just goes to show that sometimes your troubles aren't as bad as others. Maybe it has to do with the rain.

My day didn't start out this way, you know? It was actually pleasant. And then for some reason, it got worse. For the past two days, little things have been annoying me, which I guess is nothing new nowadays. Feels like I got out of the wrong side of bed. Funny though, I can't get out of bed any other way or I risk smashing my face in the wall. (Haha) Maybe if I drown my troubles in ice cream and cookies...it'll help. I should start on those cupcakes for the picnic...it's the only thing I can cook right now. *sigh* Rain sucks. What I need now is someone to cheer me up. But that person has enough troubles without having to deal with me.

*sigh* Am I relying on him too much now? It seems like it. I just don't want a long-distance, internet thing. I can't even say for certain that I like him. He makes me happy. Does that count as a lot? If this is how it feels to like someone, then I've never actually liked anyone before. Let's just say that.

Steph: Everyone is entitled to a bad day. Some people have more bad days than others but we are allowed to have them. Sure, other people may have worse problems but that doesn't mean we can't have our own bad days.


Rinny: It's hard to hope for that if I don't even know what I want. By the way, I really like your layout. It's pretty.


Matt: I wish I could say something to help...but I don't know what to say. I guess all I can really offer you is support. And if you need anyone to talk to, you know I'm online almost 24/7. Feel better! I would send you chocolates but you know, oversea charges are expensive and I wouldn't know where to send them anyway. ;-)

I guess when people tell us that our teenage years are the nest years of our lives, they lie through their teeth.

Ice Cream Helps Drown Your Troubles

Mood: Relieved and annoyed at myself for feeling that way.


Song: In The End - Linkin Park


Obsession: Ice Cream! What else?


Quote: "Good girls are just bad girls who don't get caught." - Anonymous (I dun really have a clue who said that...I really like the quote though.)

I went to dinner with my dad. I don't want to admit this but...I feel relieved. Even though he said he had something discuss, he didn't say anything that I thought was discussion topics. I learned a lot of things though. One question though, no offense to my dad, but why does his brothers all seem better than him? Or am I just holding a grudge? Cuz you know...I think I actually like all my uncles better than my dad...and I don't know...I feel like I shouldn't feel that way...*sigh*

Anyway, I'm planning on putting up a writer's blog, like some of my writer friend's have. It's a place where you write an update if you wrote something and inform the world of your progress. I feel interested in it... We'll see how that goes for me. Now that I don't blog on my site anymore, I feel I should finish all those pages I haven't made. Yeah, I think that's a good idea.

Still Waiting...

Mood: Starting to get pissed...


Song: Not A Girl, Not Yet a Woman - Britney Spears


Obsession: Blogging


Quote: "Sooner or later, people eventually change. It's the way they go about doing it that makes us different." - Mikayla

You know what? I'm STILL waiting. Damnit! I'm getting pissed. *sigh* If I get anymore over my anger quota, I'm going to be using really colourful vocabulary.

Today I just had a sort of heart to heart with an old friend (well, not old, persay, but yeah...). And it helped me realize. I'm not that different. I may be changing but I'm not changing for the worse. It's nice to know that sometimes, you're not alone. I guess cheesy romance novels can be right on some accounts. You can actually learn something reading those. So I guess my obsession wasn't totally wasted. Ah well. I'd liek to think that now, me and my friend will be closer now but I know that I can't assume anything yet. Like we've heard ever since Forrest Gump, "Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know you'll get." Or, if you're like Matt, "Sometimes that box of chocolates can be holding a nasty surprise. Even if it is chocolate." We'll see...

I'm getting hungry! My dad was supposed to take us to dinner...it's almost 8. *takes deep breath* *sigh* This just does it...

Waiting...

Mood: Brooding


Song: Can't Fight The Moonlight - Leann Rimes


Obsession: Ice Cream Cake *Yum*


Quote: "For every action, there will be a reaction. Think what reaction you would like to recieve and act accordingly." - Anonymous

Matt got a new blog because his own site is on the fritz. *sigh* I have no idea what to do. Eh...so complicated. I don't understand...how this...works but ok. I can deal with it, I guess.

I was talking to Leah and she finds my vow funny. See, I promised myself that I'm not going to jump into a relationship without being certain of the consequences. Which means that I probably won't be dating for a long while. I'm still in my "short-term" phase. Anyway, Leah finds it ironic that a teenager who is allowed to date isn't going to while everyone else who isn't allowed to goes behind their parents' backs to go out and date. I guess I see the irony. Thing is, even if my mom wouldn't let me date, I'd still feel the same...I think. Eh...I don't do things behind my mom's back so I probably wouldn't end up sneaking around. The things I do without telling my mom are few. Like the time I ordered stuff from e-bay. I can't remember anything else I've done...oh wait, I got a pet. lol, I bought these lil mini fish when I knew my mom didn't want us to have any pets. Ah well, you can't exactly hide fish and all this stuff, I confess to so *shrugz* I guess it isn't that bad.

I was talking to someone...I think it was Justin. Well, I said how I'm basically a good girl. Which is true. I guess. There's not much I do that my mom doesn't let me. So it's hard to get in trouble for things. Even if I decide to start drinking, my mom already said that if I did, she would buy me alcohol provided that I drink at home and nowhere else. I don't have the desire to drink anyway. I guess I have enough freedom not to feel rebellious so don't go and do stupid things. Which is all right by me.

You know what I'm doing right now? Waiting for my dad. I dunno. I'm getting annoyed. How vague is telling you that he would come around 5, 6, or 7? If he wanted to see us, he should have the decency to set a designated time. We're not people to wait around for him. My brother and I have lives too. =P Getting worked up again...*sigh*

Immature idiots & brainless females...

Mood: Pissed off


Song: All My Life - K-Ci and Jojo


Obsession: Still Fudgisicles


Quote: "Sometimes good can be as violent and heartless as evil. So tell me, who are the bad guys?" - Anonymous

*sigh* Some people put too much importance on the things people like. Let me ask a question...How does it feel to have a couple of people telling you that you listen to the wrong music? Geez...it's just music, does it matter? I don't like an artist's song because I like that artist. I like the song because I like the freaking song! Some girl was telling me how I shouldn't listen to Britney Spears because she's such a slut (not in so many words, but you get the point). What does she being a slut (though I don't share the same opinion) have to do with her songs? OK, so maybe "I'm A Slave 4 U" doesn't seem appropriate but she does have other songs I like. >.< I sound all defensive...blah...I dun need to justify my choices. I basically listen to everything that I like. From Pink to Britney Spears. From Linkin Park to Backstreet Boys. As long as I like the song, I really don't care who in the world sings it. =P I think I'm trying to get my frustrations for tomorrow in another way.... Getting all pissed off about dumb things isn't what I do...

Another Day, Another Try

Mood: Gloomy with a touch of boredom


Song: One Moment in Time - I forget who sings it...


Obsession: Fudgisicles...I have no more... *cries*

Welps...we'll start this out simple first and work up to getting my own layouts done and putting links and stuff. I feel too lazy to do it all now...so you won't get anything complicated. I can do some experimenting and it can work...right? Hopefully...

I am now officially and completely bored. I want to write but I feel really hot and sticky and that's bothering my concentration. There's nothing really good to read and there's nothing to snack on at home. >.< Bored!!!

You know...I've been hurting myself lately. Not intentionally but now I'm sporitng two Band-Aids. One is on my right arm where I scratched it on my watch (that I wear on my left wrist) when I did something...I have no clue what right now. And there's another one on my knee when my knee bumped against the corner of my bed. That one still stings. *sigh* What am I to do to myself?

I have just wasted the day completely by doing nothing. Nothing. Eh...I should go work on my sites...

Work...Work...work!

Hmmm...Well....let's see if this works...