A look at Mikayla trying to be formal and polite while being mildly pissed off
Have we not talked this subject to death? Do we really need to go through this again? Look, it's great that we have a big club of Tom fans, it's really great that we love him so much, and it's wonderful that we can all chat about him. But this Katherine Nicholson thing is getting way out of proportion. Let me make it clear that MOST of us don't know him. We don't know what's his "type." We aren't sure what he's like. Same with Katherine. I hate to sound old and what not, but beauty is only skin deep, what counts is what's inside. You shouldn't judge someone for the way they look. Besides, all this ranting about it won't help it. Unless you happen to be a big influence in his life, what you want doesn't matter. This is a FAN club. Not a place where we attack unlikely candidates. If you really need to make an opinion about Katherine, at least have the decency to do it when she can defend herself. We are his fans, not his keepers. We can't control what he does. He at some point liked Katherine. Fine, good for her. And if the rumors flying around about him liking Emma are true, well, we should be happy for him because HE'S happy. This Fan Club is devoted to Tom Felton, is it not? Then this is all about HIM not US. Honestly, if he thought he was really in love, or anything of the sort, do you think he would care what we think? It's his choice of who he wants to date, it's his decision about who to like. You can't control a person. Especially since he probably doesn't know who you are. Let him live his life.


*sigh* Great day I'm having. Stupid FanClub stalkers...

Memories

I love reading serious fics but everytime I do, I get all choked up and go into "quiet" mode. I hate my "quiet" moods. They make me think too much. "Quiet" moods can be used to write angst and other depressing things. Anywho, since I haven't much to say these days, I thought it may be time for me to talk about...*cue drum roll* My childhood. Or the less pleasant aspects of it. Have you ever felt really intense emotions stemming from a certain situation that aren't entirely...nice? Have you ever felt that home wasn't the best place to be? Have you ever felt butterflies of nerves fly around your stomach that may just be fear? What if you associated said, almost-fear to home, the place you should feel safe and secure? What if it's not the home but a person you live with? How do you think you'd feel when you finally get away from it? How do you think you'd feel when it finally loses grip on you? How would you feel when you can finally think again, that someone had seriously messed with your head for 6 years? I don't know about you, but I feel anger at said person for doing so, at myself for letting it happen, at someone else who didn't do anything about it. I feel happy that I don't need to think about it anymore. I feel stupid for thinking I need to impress. I feel sad that I had thought at one point that it hadn't affected me but made stronger.


My parents got divorced when I was really young. Around 5, I think. When my mom took us and left our original home, I started at a new school and everything. From then on, we were put into the care of "The Babysitter." Well, it was more of a Nanny but yeah. I can't really remember anything from the beginning. I'm pretty sure that nothing too bad happened then, or it's just that my memory doesn't go that far. After a year there, we moved again. This time, we shared a townhouse with "The Babysitter" and her family. Now that I think about it, my mom got the short end of the stick...but that's something we can talk about later. Well, I think this is where it started. Said "Babysitter" has a weird way of making us listen to her...but, I regret to say, it works. First, she favours one person (my bro or me). And obviously, when people are nice to you, you're generally going to be a good person. The person she decides not to favour, in short form, recieves living hell. Well, not so drastic but that's what I call it. When she favours you, she gives you candy, is REALLY nice to you and you know, all the sugar and spice stuff. When she doesn't favour you, you might as well be invisible. Actually, I think it was worse for my brother...because I was older and probably less malleable. Anyway, she has a glare that makes you look away, a scary, gives-you-the-creeps glare. And she says bad things to you to other people and you're AFRAID to do things around her because you know that if you so much as move, she'll probably come up with a wonderfully biting comment or cast her infamous glare on you. And you just know that you shouldn't do anything or you get your head bit off. And she tends to switch favorites once in awhile. A few nights ago, I was thinking about it and how I didn't think she had that big of an effect on me but then I thought harder...and cried...because she did. If she didn't, I wouldn't have had those near-hear butterflies. I have never ever gotten them before except when I do individual class speeches and even then, the feeling isn't so bad. If she didn't, I wouldn't have basked in the supposed glory of being the favourite when it was my turn. If she didn't, I wouldn't have at one point, seriously considered running away from home. I've always said that I never had suicidal thoughts. That's because I never did, I just have thoughts of getting away...just not in such a painful way. And you know what? What scares me the most is the fact that I WOULD have done it. I would have ran away if not for two things, one, I had no money, two, there was no place to go. And before you say anything. It WAS that bad. Imagine only getting 3 meals a day. When you're hungry in between, it's not a matter of getting up and going to get it. You wouldn't go because you were afraid of her. I liked school before because not only did I think it was fun then, but because it was my safe haven. Let's just say, you know there's something wrong with your babysitter if she ever tells your mom she thinks that you're going to get pregnant when you're a teenager. I was only 8 at that time, ok? That was also the time when my brother and I was kind of close. Because we were together on what was going on at home, you know? *sigh* I hate to see what would happen if we had to stay in her care for longer. As I grew up, I noticed I have a bit of a temper. I usually keep it repressed. People say that it's really bad to keep back anger. And no, I'm not hinting at anything. You know, if we were still with her now, I don't think I would be sitting here, typing about it.


Well...that was one part of the sad chapter of my life. Let us never say anything, breathe a word about it or mention it. It's not something I discuss with people. Typing it seems ok...the last time I talked about this, my hands got cold and shaky. Right. Let us never speak of it again. And that's the end of our lovely story tonight. Goodbye.

Not A Virgo

Well, it's been determined. I am not a Virgo, therefore September 14 cannot be my birthday and therefore I am older or younger than I really am...preferably older. Psh...the reason is...I match none of the aspects of a Virgo. Of course, as I quote Hermione, quoting McGonagal, "Divination is the most imprecise magic there is." Or something around there. Erm...well, here is my proof, from Astrology-Online.com. You tell me how much that sounds like me. Keep in mind that I'm weird, can be loud, and have a ridiculously messy room. The sex thing is just funny. *snort*


Virgo is the only zodiacal sign represented by a female. Good It is sometimes thought of as a potentially creative girl Thank you, delicately lovely Again, thank you; sometimes as a somewhat older woman, intelligent but rather pedantic and spinsterish lol! Well! I never... The latter impression is sometimes confirmed by the Virgoan Is that even a word?!? preciseness, refinement, fastidious love of cleanliness, hygiene and good order, conventionality and aristocratic attitude of reserve. Gee...out of all that, I'm willing to bet that the only thing that applies to me here is good hygiene, though I may not be adverse to the last two things They are usually observant sometimes, shrewd Not that i know of, critically inclined Say what?, judicious Again...no., patient Nope, practical supporters of the status quo I do not like, or support the status quo, thank you very much and I'm not really all that pratical either., and tend toward conservatism in all departments of life So what planet did I come from?. On the surface they are emotionally cold Well, I see someone doesn't seem to like me much..., and sometimes this goes deeper, for their habit of suppressing their natural kindness I suppress my natural kindness?!? Since when? Exactly! may in the end cause it to atrophy, with the result that they shrink from committing themselves to friendship, make few relationships, and those they do make they are careful to keep superficial. Thanks, I feel soooo much better now. Really needed that ego boost


But the outward lack of feeling Lack of feeling? I'm not showing a lack of feeling now! may, in some individuals born under this sign, conceal too much emotion A little bit, I mostly show my emotions...which makes me the way I am., to which they are afraid of giving way because they do not trust others Huh...sometimes., nor do they have confidence in themselves and their judgments Psh, wrong there, I have TOO much confidence in myself and my judgements.. This is because they are conscious of certain shortcomings in themselves of worldliness, of practicality But it just said before that I was practical! How does a pratical person feel they're not practical enough?!?, of sophistication I'm not a big fan of that either and of outgoingness I feel I'm outgoing enough...well, mostly. So they bring the art of self concealment to a high pitch, hiding their apprehensiveness about themselves and their often considerable sympathy with other people under a mantle of matter-of-factness and undemonstrative, quiet reserve. Nope They are still waters that run deep. Yet in their unassuming, outwardly cheerful and agreeable fashion, they can be sensible, discreet, well spoken, wise and witty, with a good understanding of other people's problems which they can tackle with a practicality not always evident in their own personal relationships. Finally! Something that's more me....though...I'm never discreet, or all that sensible....probably not wise either....


Both sexes have considerable charm and dignity, which make some male Virgoans appear effeminate I swear this thing has more words I don't understand than anything I've ever read when they are not. In marriage they can be genuinely affectionate, making good spouses and parents In the end, I still like kids., but their love making is a perfection of technique rather than the expression of desire, and they must be careful not to mate with a partner whose sex drive requires a passion they cannot match. LOL! That was the funniest part....Ok... In other words, don't sleep around! Eh...not like I would anyway. lol...


They are intellectually enquiring Hey! That explains the whole Polyjuice Potion thing!, methodical and logical Er...I am?, studious Like heck, I am.. and teachable Shouldn't everyone be?. They combine mental ingenuity with the ability to produce a clear analysis of the most complicated problems Now, if I could only REALLY do that. They have an excellent eye for detail but they may be so meticulous that they neglect larger issues lol, wasn't I, the one who said I don't pay attention to other things?. Also, although they are realists Yup, like the whole plastic flower melting thing, they may slow down projects by being too exact I'd rather get a project over with than care whther it was exact or not. Of course, when writing...I feel like a perfectionist...maybe I am some sort of Virgo after all.... They are practical with their hands Would you stop with the practicality already! Besides, I can't do much with my hands..., good technicians Er...ok..? and have genuine inventive talents Look! I can finally claim something else!, Thoroughness, hard work and conscientiousness are their hallmarks, and they are such perfectionists that, if things go wrong, they are easily discouraged Hey! That's true! Like when I write something I spent a lot of time on it, and no one leaves me a comment, I feel bad.... Because of their ability to see every angle of a many-sided question I can do that too, they are unhappy with abstract theorizing But I love theories! If not, Dumbledore won't be evil anymore!. Appreciating the many different points of view as they do, they find philosophical concepts difficult But I LIKE philosphy!, and they vacillate and have no confidence in any conclusions at which they arrive Ok, yeah, that's not entirely wrong.


With these qualities, they are better as subordinates than leaders. True...I don't like ordering people around (well, sometimes...) and I don't like being ordered around Responsibility irks them lol! and they often lack the breadth of strategic vision Excuse me, I just don't lead. that a leader needs Virgoans are essentially tacticians, admirable in the attainment of limited objectives Good for me.. Their self distrust is something they project on to other people and tends to make them exacting employers, though in the demands they make on those under them they temper this attitude with justice Good to know I'm fair. They have potential abilities in the arts, sciences and languages Those were always subjects that my highest marks are in. Language especially they use correctly, clearly, consciously and formally OMG! Look! See? That explains my need to be grammariticly correct!, as grammarians and etymologists rather than for literary interests Well, not really, I like literature, it's more fun than grammar, though grammar is part of literature..., yet they are likely to have a good memory for apt quotations Well, I like quotes.... Although they are well suited for careers in machine drawing, surveying and similar occupations, they are better fitted for a job in a library or office than a workshop. Good. That's where I'd rather be anyway.


Their minds are such that they need the stimulus of practical problems to be solved rather than the mere routine or working to set specifications that need no thought Well, seeing as I don't like being bored and the fact that I think rather complicatedly, I would say this is correct...but PLEASE, stop tith the pratical stuff! It's getting on my nerves.... They are careful with money Erm...riight... and their interest in statistics I'm not so sure about that... makes them excellent bookkeepers and accountants Did I ever mention I suck at math?. They also make good editors Yay!, physicists and analytical chemists. They may also find success as welfare workers Good, I once wanted to be one of those...aka Social workers, ministering to those less fortunate than themselves. They can be doctors, nurses, psychologists, teachers, confidential secretaries Right there, a list of things I wanted to do, technologists, inspectors, musicians, critics, public speakers and writers especially of reference works such as dictionaries and encyclopedias No thanks, though I can speak in a formal, and grown-up way, I prefer fiction.. Both sexes have a deep interest in history cool, I do!, a feature recognized by astrological authorities for at least two hundred years. If they go in for a business career their shrewdness and analytical ingenuity could tempt them into dishonesty lol, too late., though they usually have enough moral sense to resist temptation. Female Virgoans may find a career in fashion, for they have a flair for dress, in which they can be trend setters Interesting...I did at one point think about being a fashion designer, but, I can draw clothes not sew or anything of the like.. In any profession they choose the natives of this sign readily assimilate new ideas, but always with caution, conserving what they consider worth keeping from the past Well, I guess I can be prepared.... They love country life Not really...I prefer to live in a town, not a city though. but are unlikely to make good farmers I didn't think so either., unless they can contrive to carry out their work without outraging their sense of hygiene and cleanliness. Actually, come to think of it, I feel uncomfortable in dirty places. I don't like sitting in the inside when seated at booths...there's just something icky about it...


Their faults, as is usual with all zodiacal types, are the extremes of their virtues. Fastidious reticence and modesty become old-maidishness and persnicketiness; balanced criticism becomes carping and nagging; and concern for detail becomes overspecialization Hmm...well, that's not how I am. *shudders* I refuse to appear Old maid-ish ever.. Virgoans are liable to indecision in wider issues Even in narrow issues, I'm indecisive and this can become chronic, turning molehills of minor difficulties into Himalayas of crisis I don't make a big deal out of things. If I did, I wouldn't be sitting here, commentating on this.. Their prudence can become guile and their carefulness, turned in on themselves, can produce worriers and hypochondriacs. Well, thank fully, I am the person who rarely worries. =)


Virgo is said to govern the hands, abdomen, intestines, spleen and central nervous system. Illnesses to which its natives are prone include catarrh, cold, coughs, pleurisies, pneumonia and nervous instabilities. Their natures make them inclined to worry and this makes them vulnerable to stomach and bowel troubles, including colic and ulcers. Male Virgoans may have trouble with their sexual organs. Both sexes are strongly interested in drugs and esoteric cuisine and as their delicate stomachs require them to be careful about their diet, it is essential that they treat their fascination with exotic food with extreme care. First of all, I am NOT interested in drugs, they only constant drug I put in myself in CHILDREN'S Tempra, which relieves my headaches. Anyhow, I think maybe the stomach thing is true, when I'm sick, I feel more inclined to throw up even though the illness has nothing to do with the stomach.


And that was basically it. *sigh* I'm not much of a Virgo as I've said.

Thoughtful

Mmm...I notice I don't really have anything to say about myself lately. Mostly all I talk about it what I write, what weird things I'm doing. Frankly, I don't know if I'm gonna blog much anymore. I know, I know, I am the compulsive-blogger, but lately...I guess I just don't have anything to say. Oh well...


I've been thinking...a few days ago, I was talking to my friends about meeting new people (guys mostly...) and we said how we should start to do more things to meet said new people. It's kind of sad that though school has over 200 students yet a lot of them don't seem to interest our group. (And yes, I am talking about guys...) We also talked about going to the Semi-Formal in Gr. 11. We'd like a date for that night but I think if I don't have one, I would go anyway. So I may feel lonely but *shrugz* it's not like I haven't noticed this sort of loneliness before, you know. Besides, the lure of doing something intriques me and it'll be some place I'll need to take lots of pictures of and try to remember for a long time. I don't really want to miss out on that....Anywho...I don't feel up to saying anything else now. Tata!

In Mourning...

*sigh* Robert Merlin Lefaye is officially dead. Will never exist anywhere but my imagination again. That is sooo depressing. Illusion is now sort of officially over. I wrote an end note to it and probably will never restart it again. I have mixed feelings on this. On the one hand, it's one of my first D/G stories and it's kind of sad to see it unfinished. On the other hand, I was going to get sick of it sooner or later and not finish it anyway. Oh well...


On a brighter note, I made two wallpapers today! ^-^ One is of HP and the CofS. It's by far, my favorite. And another I made of Tidus and Yuna. I like naming my wallpapers. The HP one is called, "The Chamber is Opened...." And the FFX one is called, "Underwater Moonlight." I like this whole wallpaper business... Maybe I can contribute to my friend's graphics site...Anywho, these two wallpaper aren't mine, I made them as those gift thingies I talked about last entry. I'm glad they're turning out great. ^-^

Ryo, My Hero Part II

Mood: I'm ok, I guess...


Song: "Something Worth Leaving Behind" - Lee Ann Womack


Obsession: None, this afternoon. Well, not at the moment, anyway.


Quote: "Love is not just one emotion, but many put together. That is why it is such a strong feeling."

You know what? I've only been into anime for a year and a half or so. Yet I've liked MANY anime guys....I knew I had some sort of commitment problem but yeesh... lol, just Digimon alone, there are at least 10...I think. I believe I need a new hobby. *shrugz* At least, I can gush about every single male character in Digimon...but maybe that's not something to be proud of ^^; I have come to the conclusion that perhaps I should find more normal things to do. But then again, what IS normal? I may not know the answer to that question but I do know that normal people probably don't obsess over the simple fact of where the Forbidden Forest to a fictional story really is. Yep! I'm 100% certified teenaged weirdo. Now to make that into a bumber sticker...

Did you know that I have files on my hard drive of my Digimon/TK shrine? It's crap cuz a lot of stuff is missing but it's interesting to see how I've evolved. *sigh* Those were the good old days... =P Of course, yesterday, I delibrately looked for these files to help in my search for Taiora sites. Only, I forgot where I got my images and don't have the names of the fan artists. ^^; That was an oversight on my part. Ah well, I will credit SOMEONE soon enough.

I got sent an e-mail to join a Harry Potter slash clique. I will join someday when I get my site back up and find out who exactly is my favourite slash couple. Yesterday, I tried to write the companion piece to slash fic, ATMS, didn't work out very well so I'm planning to re-write that. I have decided that Illusion will not be continued. I haven't written anything for it since...a REALLY long time ago. And I have come to not like it very much. One, for the fact that in its cliched-ness, it still isn't particularly realistic. And it's not all that well written, in my opinion (of course, that's what I said about NFH, and everyone yelled at me cuz they thought I did write it well). I'm going to write a note for it and tell people how it ends. And maybe, if I feel like it someday, I will write another chapter. For now, I want to concentrate on Secret Santa and Beyond Magic. Everything else will reside in the back of my mind. I know I have to finish many things but Beyond Magic is to become the first of my "Harry Potter Masterpiece" and I feel that's where I should concentrate on. Hence all that research. Somewhere between the two, I'm still thinking up a plot for Children of the Week. No wonder I stay up so late at night. How does one sleep with all that in her mind? I hope this is going to help make my chapters faster....of course my mind DOES tend to wander around. (As my desire to rise to a slash fic challenge and to write an MWPP era ficcie has shown) Maybe it IS time I find a new hobby....

Though people say it's good to have a great imagination, I believe there's such a thing as too much imagination. And yes, I do mean my own. Is it wrong for a person to sit around and WATCH in her mind the scenes of her yet to be stories go by? Like this one time, I watched as Anne (her name is set to change) (she is going to be some character's mother.) said a whole speech to Voldemort. Keep in mind that Anne is a muggle. She doesn't get killed...actually, I think it'd have a bigger effect if she does...hmm... Anyway, Anne was Tom's only friend at his orphanage and she had loved him. Before he left for his last school year at Hogwarts, he promised to come back for her. But he never did. Anyway, her speech is really touching...and I cried. >.< Weird, huh? Oh well, it's kind of fun, actually. Somehow though, I can't picture the imagery...

Well...I have FINALLY finished the booking of a party room. I can only have 20 guest =( Oh well...I'd rather have less people than pay a security guard. Plooie... Anywho, I'm lazy and I don't want to waste paper, so I'm making everyone a web page invitation! Well, it's not like I have anything better to do these days. And it's not going to be hard. I'll just make everyone some wallpaper (I'm a little addicted to that....and photoshop) and then put sords on it and you can keep the wallpaper! Congrats, Kayla, now what else do you want to do? Erm...good question. I think I should start on a list of things I should go out and buy. And I should probably make wallpapers now ^-^ Is it wrong to have fun planning the party? lol, it's just that everyone talks about how stressed it is...and I'm not really stressed....

Ryo, My Hero

Mood: That fuzzy feeling you get when talking a walk down memory lane.


Song: None


Obsession: Taiora fanart and Ryo Akiyama


Quote: "Enjoy everyday as it comes."



I have been diving into the few Digimon links I have and have been digging around for what Taiora fanart I can find. The reason is that I suddenly feel that they should be the star of my layout despite my plan of using a Pretear layout or a CCS Sakura and Syaoran one. Doing this brings back old memories. It's rather pleasant. Reminds me of why Digimon used to be my obsession. It was fun. Anyhow, I found a Ryo/Ruki shrine in my search. I had stopped thinking about Ryo. And it made me think...a lot. Ryo is so far the only really good (as in, self sacrifacing, sugar sweet) character I still like. I mean, Takeru was an obsession but now I'm just fond of him. Well, maybe Tai. Anywho, Ryo reminds me alot of Harry Potter. (either that or I'm just way too obsessed for my own good) He does things for the good of the people, not because he has to. Anyways, I believe I should go to bed now. More later!

Research, good for the mind and soul

Mood: Intriqued, interested.


Song: "The Hardest Thing" - 98 Degrees


Obsession: If Hogwarts is somewhere in the middle of Scotland, with Inverness (and Loch Ness) to the north and Aberdeen to the east, then the other side of the Forbidden Forest would end up near Aberdeen and not Inverness like I had hoped.


Quote: "People who does not believe that a 'monster' exists in Loch Ness, asks for proof, yet when some sort of proof is laid before them, they choose to discredit it or ignore it." - Loch Ness Monster (written by Robert D. San Souci) How do you prove something exists, short of capturing it and putting it on display?

Question: Is it weird to be looking into things too much just to provide moe details into a story? Answer: Probably. First of all, I'm pondering the location of Hogwarts a bit too much so that now I'm totally confused. Fron the Harry Lexicon (sort of a Harry Potter encyclopedia), there is a drawing of how Hogwarts and Hogsmeade would be located. The map shows that the Forbidden Forest is to the east of the castle if facing the North. However, in an essay someone wrote about the Forbidden Forest, there is a quote found in the Prisoner of Azkaban about the sun sinking behind the trees of the Forbidden Forest as the Trio leaves the castle, proving that the Forest is on the west. Now, as I believe I should read all the books again to find this out, I know one thing. If the Forbidden Forest is really to the west of Hogwarts, my Prologue to BM would be screwed over since I was using the map as a guide where the Forest is to the East. Sirius would have no place whatsoever to hide and be dead before the prologue. (I am being realistic.) But, if the forest WAS to the west, it would actually help since that way, the end of the forest would lead to a place close to Loch Ness and thus furthering my plot. Bob! I'm weird....I'm putting way too much value in the importance of detail. Like anyone would really care (though I guess, I do) However, when you think about it, many people have ignored the single most important detail, the lake at Hogwarts is below cliff of which Hogwarts stand. Meaning, students can't exactly walk to the lake, you know? *shrugz* I need a life...

Despite my rather weird behaviours, this research has helped me learned about Scotland, which is pretty interesting. Such as the fact that in 1707, there was an Act of Union between the English and the Scots where in an attempt to compromising, Scotland relinquished their right to parliament to keep their Scottish church and legal system while under England's rule. I think that the Scottish got the short end of the stick. If it was in agreement that Scotland disband their parliament, they wouldn't be able to keep their legal system as the English had promised, because isn't the parliament, the central system of a legal system? Unless the English agreed to incorporate the Scottish law into their system, there is no way that Scotland could have kept their legal system without a parliament. I should really get a new hobby or something ^^; And this is what I have been doing since I woke up this morning (or noon). I need someone to discuss this with...someone who knows more facts and can explain to me things like this. Anyone here have a vast knowledge of Scotland?

Well, I'm off to go read about Scotland...again.

*sniffles*

Mood: Moderate. If that's a mood.


Song: "Never Had A Dream Come True" - S Club 7


Obsession: None...hmm...that's rare.


Quote: I don't really feel like making one up or looking for one....so....



I'm tired for some reason. It's not like I did much. Just sat and chatted with friends all day. *yawn* I'm still tired though.


Well, after many days, I finally got a review for As The Moon Shines. I never figured myself to be a person who lived for reviews but it turns out, I am. Anyhow, the funny thing is I got a review from someone who didn't like slash but she didn't think mine was so bad 'cuz she thought there was "something tasteful" about it. I'm proud. ^-^ If peple who don't like slash enjoyed it, it means I can do something. I did use a brief summary and I do realize I'm not one to write slash so that's ok. ^-^ Well, right now, I'm concentrating on a companion piece for ATMS (lol, cash!) and a sequel to My Daddy. I should start Illusion at some time, shouldn't I? Eh...does anyone really care? *shrugs* Oh well. BM is put on hold until I find out the general area of where Hogwarts might be. I want to find out if it's close enough to Loch Ness.That way, I can incorporate the legend of the Loch Ness monster into the story. Hmm...hmmm...hmm...oh well, we'll see. Got to go research more.



Which Hogwarts Student Are You?


Appaerently, besides being Draco, I can also be Harry....how does that work out?

Purtiness

Mood: MMm....I don't know how to describe it...neutral but in a good mood, you know?


Song: "Never Goodbye" - Umm...no idea....it's a Midi from some site. My Princess site (you know, where I find Draco in a sheet, lol).


Obsession: Lily and James fanart. Do you know where I can find good fanart? Preferably anime-ish style


Quote: None.

Today, I was told that I was pretty 4 times. Could be a record. But see, the thing with this is, it's nice when people compliment you, of course. But it's not the same if it seems...akward? First time. I met my mom's new manager today. She's never met me before but she's seen my bro a few times. Anyway, when she met me, she was like, "Candy, you've been hiding your pretty daughter." Or something like that. It seems like it's required for her to say that, you know? It's not really forced but like...I dunno...too necessary feeling. Okiez, next person who told me I was pretty was this girl, she won fifth place at Miss India Canada or something. And I guess that was more natural, after we met her (at Pizza Hut), my mom's friend said how I could go for a pageant for Chinese Canadians (the third pretty comment, the fourth one was another discussion of this...do they really want me in that pageant or what?). I said, no. They wanted to know why. It's weird cuz...I dunno, just weird. So I told them how I don't like to be on stage and stuff like that. My real reasons is because displaying my body for others to view is *shudders* weird and kinda creepy. Plus, I can never answer questions in front of crowds of people and I don't think it's all that fun to walk around in a bikini and heels. >.< Besides, though I don't consider myself ugly and deformed or fat (though my stomach could use a bit of work), I don't consider myself overly pretty. I dunno, I guess I think of myself as a normal, everyday, someone you pass by in the streets, kinda person. Not really all that noticable in a good way or bad way, you know? I'm just another teen with skin that breaks out and forehead that's a bit oily (though that's very fixable) and like I once said, consider my hair my best feature. Nothing really special. That's just the way I like it. ^-^

ANywho, I finished my first article/issue for Fanfiction.net. Now all I have to do is write one more and I can send it in. Good. These days, my writing is really progressing. As soon as I finish Chapter 1 of Beyond Magic, I'm going to start on something original. I do still have to cultivate the whole Children of the Week series. Now I need to start finding decent art for Opinionated and write an article for that too. I make myself busy, don't I? Like how Grade 11 is my busiest year so far. And it hasn't even started yet. OK, first of all, I actually plan to work hard on school wrok and stuff, I'm going to volunteer at the following places: Girl Guides, Animal Shelter, Yee Hong (senior's home) and at the Library. And I start piano lessons in sept. I'm going to be busy...and I think I may enjoy it... ^^; I don't know. I guess it's my attention span thing. I like to be busy so I won't be bored.