A spot of depression
Not depression, more of a...sombre thought. Read
Letter From Exile one Merciful Morning. It's really good. But long, so you have to sit through it. I think it's kind of thought-provoking and realistic. Ron is kind of an idiot in the beginning but eh... I may just prefer it if I got to yell at him or something. But anyway, it really makes you think. One person can actually plan the perfect death if they so wish, as I believe many people can plan the perfect crime if they put their mind to it. It depends on how dedicated they are. This story really gives you an in depth look at what kind of person Severus Snape could be. These are the fics that put me in my 'dark' mood. But then I was already in that mood before. What bothers me most is that a lot of Snape/Hermione fics are...darker than other fics. However, it's that same darkness that attracts me to it. *shrugz* Oh well.
With my new bout of depression (so something slightly depressing because I, myself, do not feel depressed), I have a new fic idea. OK, yes, I remember saying I don't want my mind to wonder but this fic (or two) is rather short. The world is full of controversy and not everyone gets their happy ever afters. I call myself optimistic, but because of my realistic views, some people think I'm pessimist. I believe in happy endings and all that, look on the bright side, stuff like that. But I also know I'm not delusional. There is conflict in our world and there are people who will not have the bright side to look at. However, referring to a quote from Emily Dickenson, hope is a feeling that doesn't go away. That is the basis of this (or more) fic. My introduction will be something like this:
"Even in the world of magic, where there have been amazing accomplishments that humans, muggles, can never achieve, there isn't always a happily ever after. Magic, to us, is usually a fairy tale, something that usually exists in fiction. Magic, as Harry Potter has shown us, can be for good or evil, depending on how we look at it. Magic is also something we wish we could have to help us solve problems. But some people, with magic and all, have different circumstances. These circumstances prevent people from happiness and no matter how much people want to believe it, love does not always conquer all."
That is the introduction to all the lil fics. The series is called, "Save The Last Dance." No, I'm not ripping off the movie title, I just feel that it is appropriate. I think I'll make it a trilogy. The setting for all of these, is of course, a dance. Probably at Hogwarts. Probably some ball. Probably during a school reunion or Harry's sixth year at Hogwarts. The couples will be as follows, Draco/Ginny, Severus/Hermione, Cedric/Cho. Draco and Ginny are separated by family/house rivalry. Their place in society is different. People tend to believe in a Cinderella story but the truth of the matter is, if they did end up together, the two of them could be shunned by their families and friends. People feel lonely because they don't have a boyfriend/husband/soul mate, but they can also feel lonely if that's the only person they have. Severus and Hermione is not only set apart because of rivalry, but because of an age difference. Love may not care how old the two of them are, but the rules of society does. Age may only be a number, but it's also a tool aganist them. I believe that the fic I just mentioned above provides the realistic view I'm trying to talk about. Student/Teacher relationships are extremely forbidden and of course, there is the matter of Hermione being underage. These are major issues in the world today. Sometimes, life is easier if you don't reach for that love you've always dreamed about. That is their story. Cho and Cedric have a real problem. Obviously, Cedric is dead. That does cause quite an obstacle. No one is entirely sure why some people are ghosts and some just disappear. A popular theory is that you become a ghost to finish unfinished business but we may never know. Some people hold on to a love that can never be. This story is about letting go, even if you don't believe in a second chance at love. You can't hold onto a memory forever. Memories, though precious, fade and blur over time. Memory can never return your feelings. You would always love a person but is it worth it to stop living your life fully by embracing a memory?
I know, it's all very depressing. But that's the thing. These things really do happen. People just don't want to see it or if it's displayed before them, it's generally aganist society. Well, mostly the whole student/teacher thing, anyway. This comes back to my question from quite some years ago. Who or what decides what rules society should up keep? Love knows no boundaries but it's society's rules that give the people boundaries, not the feeling. Exactly what is society anyway? When was it formed? Gee, do I really think too much or what? Oh, one thing I've always wondered. I've always heard something about how people should accept all of God's creations. But it is also known that people claim that it is wrong in religion to be homosexual. My question is, wouldn't it be true that if a person was homosexual, God made it so (if you believe in that sort of thing)? So why would that be wrong? I'm not insulting anyone or questioning anyone's religion (or I might be, I'm never too sure myself), I'm just saying that this is what I hear and this is what I think about, ok? OK. I just don't want anyone thinking I was insulting anyone.
*sigh* I think those Severus/Hermione fics are getting to me...but the thing is, they're so good! Eh...I'll probably feel better tomorrow. I'm just in a mood, you know?
